I am completely overwhelmed today and hate feeling this way. It feels as though I have no control over anything that is crashing down on me. Perhaps it feels that way because it is that way, or perhaps I can take steps to deal with each matter accordingly. I just don’t know. All I do know if that I want to crawl into bed, pull the covers over my head and sleep. I would like to sleep until everything is resolved and life becomes easier to live again. But since I have never found life easy, I would probably sleep until the end of eternity.
I know that what I need to do is make up a game plan to deal with each little item that seems to be crushing me with it’s weight. For example, I feel overwhelmed financially, so what I should do is re-evaluate my budget in relation to spending habits and try to reconcile the two. Then perhaps I should get out and earn some money. Being a freelance writer doesn’t exactly pay the bills most months. But instead, I’ve opted to lock myself alone in a room on this hot summer’s night and fret about every little thing that is suffocating me at this moment. My financial situation, the sunburn on my back, my fear of not being a good mother, my concerns of not living a life filled with meaning and purpose, and my fears that I’ll never amount to anything. In all honesty, this list could just go on and on and on. Even as I write this, I think, “Just get a grip!” Why is it so much easier said than done?